Sometimes when we are going through the scum life hands us, words don't come easily. Yet, when they do, they often carry a punch. I wrote this a while ago when complete sentences seemed out of reach. I am not in that place any more, praise be to God, but felt this might be an encouragement to someone.
Numb, yet the feelings are so strong.
Paralysis and overflow of voltage, simultaneously.
Pain smoothed over with a relieving gel.
Hope dimmed by doubt.
Joy held at bay by duty.
Disappointment masked over with flexibility.
Desire warring with hatred.
Love fighting anger.
Truth solid beneath shifting facts.
Knowing not touching the feeling.
Belief hanging on when trust wanes.
Motivation lost.
Insomnia gripping.
Energy taxed.
Pockets of air.
Roller coaster.
God you see it all. Father- you always make a way. Have yours. Let your Kingdom come. Let your will be done. On earth as it is in heaven. Heal. Restore. Make new. Begin. Surprise. Come through. Oh what grace. Without you I am nothing. Without you I would be insane. Without you I would be lost. Tears.
Hope.
Fear.
Knowing Truth.
Believing lies.
Seeing facts.
Holding on to God.
Seeing the blessings in the moments.
Letting go of tomorrow.
Submission.
Control.
Questions.
Revelation.
Sleep.
Wake.
Eat.
Give.
Plan.
Dream.
Cry.
Dream Again!
Smile.
Numb, yet the feelings are so strong.
Paralysis and overflow of voltage, simultaneously.
Pain smoothed over with a relieving gel.
Hope dimmed by doubt.
Joy held at bay by duty.
Disappointment masked over with flexibility.
Desire warring with hatred.
Love fighting anger.
Truth solid beneath shifting facts.
Knowing not touching the feeling.
Belief hanging on when trust wanes.
Motivation lost.
Insomnia gripping.
Energy taxed.
Pockets of air.
Roller coaster.
God you see it all. Father- you always make a way. Have yours. Let your Kingdom come. Let your will be done. On earth as it is in heaven. Heal. Restore. Make new. Begin. Surprise. Come through. Oh what grace. Without you I am nothing. Without you I would be insane. Without you I would be lost. Tears.
Hope.
Fear.
Knowing Truth.
Believing lies.
Seeing facts.
Holding on to God.
Seeing the blessings in the moments.
Letting go of tomorrow.
Submission.
Control.
Questions.
Revelation.
Sleep.
Wake.
Eat.
Give.
Plan.
Dream.
Cry.
Dream Again!
Smile.